Jumped

Ma,

Jami got jumped last night. I am so sad; you know she can't fight for shit. Obviously she's not in school today. Everybody is talking about it and planning retaliation. I called Jami but her mother wouldn't let her get on the phone - she said she was resting. Whatever. I'm going to go to her house after school.

Everybody wants me to say I'll fight, which I totally would. I love Jami. Except I'm still in leftover trouble from the last fight. This sucks. Firstly, I have no clue why exactly Jami got jumped. Secondly, unless she puts the word out that it's okay, if I don't fight, then I'm going to get jumped. And I can't even get in touch with Jami!

I keep putting off actually saying "no" to going to find Jazmyn, which is who everybody decided started it, and I am going in a few minutes to call Aunt Elaine to tell her she needs to come pick me up early from school. I'll fake sick if I have to.

There's like this fighting mentality, Ma. I totally used to be in it, and would get this rush any time I was going to be in a fight. Really, it was a total high to be fighting. And now I don't have it anymore and the fighting seems so rushed and disorganized. I mean, if it was Jazmyn then yes, absolutely her ass needs to be kicked. But NOBODY is allowed to talk to Jami, so unless they were there, how do they know it was her? And if Jazmyn's jumped and it wasn't her, then someone ELSE will wind up getting jumped in retaliation for THAT. It's like a never-ending cycle.

Stupid fucking therapy and PINS shit, making me think fighting is bad. Next thing you know they'll say fast food is bad too.

I am stressed,
Sam