The aftermath of my life after 9/11, when half my family died. How I am struggling to come back to the self my mother used to love and be proud of while still letting myself grow.
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Disenchanted
Ma,
I don't feel like doing this anymore. You never write back. I just complain when I write anyway. You never write back. This is stupid.
Me
4 comments:
Anonymous
said...
sam, please don’t stop. i know my answers are not the answers you really yearn for, but even if you feel you’re just complaining i think it’s important that you have a place where you can complain. and we see a lot of the things that are good in your life, too. keep it up, please.
Sam - I do hope you keep writing. I understand that it feels stupid sometimes. I think about shutting down my blog somewhat frequently. But it's good for the spirit to write. And it's brought meaning to my life to understand a piece of yours.
I'd hate to lose touch with you. It can seem like shouting into the darkness, but sometimes that's just what you need.
Imagine this- What if you bottled up all the things you though about Aunt Elaine, and then they all came rushing out at the worst time? Would that help you, Dani and Alex?
Take a break if you like. I've done it. But come back. We'd miss you too much.
Don't stop, Sam. It can be so frustratring writing and writing to someone who can never respond. But at the same time, sometimes you just need a place to let out your thoughts that you don't want to tell anyone else. One of the best things you can do for yourself is to write. There is nothing wrong with complaining-- some days I feel as if that is all I do, too. Sometimes it's just good to let out how you feel, because if you didn't say these things, you might either get fed up and say them out loud to the wrong person, or just keep them in and be miserable. I hope you decide to keep writing.
4 comments:
sam, please don’t stop.
i know my answers are not the answers you really yearn for, but even if you feel you’re just complaining i think it’s important that you have a place where you can complain. and we see a lot of the things that are good in your life, too. keep it up, please.
Sam - I do hope you keep writing. I understand that it feels stupid sometimes. I think about shutting down my blog somewhat frequently. But it's good for the spirit to write. And it's brought meaning to my life to understand a piece of yours.
I'd hate to lose touch with you. It can seem like shouting into the darkness, but sometimes that's just what you need.
Imagine this- What if you bottled up all the things you though about Aunt Elaine, and then they all came rushing out at the worst time? Would that help you, Dani and Alex?
Take a break if you like. I've done it. But come back. We'd miss you too much.
Don't stop, Sam. It can be so frustratring writing and writing to someone who can never respond. But at the same time, sometimes you just need a place to let out your thoughts that you don't want to tell anyone else. One of the best things you can do for yourself is to write. There is nothing wrong with complaining-- some days I feel as if that is all I do, too. Sometimes it's just good to let out how you feel, because if you didn't say these things, you might either get fed up and say them out loud to the wrong person, or just keep them in and be miserable. I hope you decide to keep writing.
--Dragon
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