This may sound kind of obnoxious, but I don' t mean it that way: I like myself. I try really hard to be a good person, and fair to people, and nice to them, and I hate drama and power trips and try to avoid those. And it's not like I'm saying, "Every day I try really hard to fly like a bird" because I think I AM doing a good job being a person I can like.
However. All those OTHER girls who are bitchy and play games and mindfuck people? They're making my life harder!
This weekend has been crazy busy. Friday night I got into bed at 3:35 a.m. - that's how busy things are. I can't help it. But, Josh wanted to hang out, and asked me to meet him and his friend at the movies today. I told him I had some Danielle-stuff to do and would have to be like five minutes late. Dani under-estimated though and a half hour after the movie started, I was finally able to start out. I didn't even really want to see this movie, so the idea of paying money for part of a movie made me decide to just not go at all. I went home instead and left Josh a voicemail explaining and apologizing.
It kind of worked out really well for me to not go, because Alex and I had agreed to clean our room today and do laundry and throw out all the old papers and garbage and stuff. So like as I'm writing this, there's only one more load of laundry left, which is really good.
But Josh wasn't as happy about the whole thing, and he called to accuse me of standing him up to get back at him for dumping me. This is why sometimes I hate girls - only another girl would do something like that. Not me. So I got all insulted and told Josh not to treat me like other girls who create drama and fuck with people, because I don't do that.
So Josh-wise, this has not been a very good weekend. Homework and clothing and room-wise, it's been highly productive.
1 comment:
you know, this is exactly how i feel.
for one thing, i have always tried to be a person i would like. to be fair, and helpful, and honest, above all. many people get the impression of me that i don't have a strong self-confidence, because i'm shy and don't exactly find myself good-looking. but that's very superficial. in fact, i quite like myself, because i'm a good person and a good friend.
i agree that girls who try to "get back" at their ex give us a bad reputation. they are also missing the chance to learn a lesson. i wouldn't say that both partners always have equal part in a break-up, but you can always learn from it and try to make your relationships work better.
i hope you can make clear to josh that you are not that kind of girl. my guess is that he is a little insecure about your freshly renewed relationship, maybe even still feeling guilty because he dumped you before, and jumps to conclusions a little rashly because of that.
try to make him understand your point. he must know that you have a strong sense of fairness.
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