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My throat is hurting a lot again. Maybe I need it surgically removed or something. Have not felt like writing lately. Craig asked me the other day if I'm still writing and I thought about lying but told him not really. He said he thought not, that I give off an energy that's different.

Alex was watching tv with Aunt Elaine and on their Lifetime movie a girl got in to Harvard. Alex said to her, "When we go away to college what's going to happen to you?" Aunt Elaine told her she'll be all alone and die.

Toby called me yesterday, but I'm finished having my crush on him and didn't answer or call back. And it's not just because Josh called from a kid's clothing store to say he found pink fingerless gloves and did I want him to get them for Alex even though they don't have skulls on the backs of the hands. I said yes. Josh is going to give them to her for Valentine's Day, since it's so soon. But. We have like two weeks, so I'm going to see if I can find two skull patches that are exactly the same and then sew them on really tight myself.

Now I need to come up with something amazing for Josh. I suck at buying people presents. Dani said she knows what he's giving me and I'm going to love it, but I have no idea what that means. I haven't said I want anything lately.