Alex has never watched 9/11 footage. When some of Topher's fire guys came over to talk to us that day it was on the news and one of them took her out of the room and said she didn't need to be seeing that. Al stopped talking that day and it took months for her to talk again.
In school one time this boy asked what the point was of like learning all this boring history. Our teacher said so we're not doomed to repeat it. I guess the point is to remember forever. The three of us won't ever forget so we don't need to watch 9/11 footage and reinactments.
I expect a lot of documentaries around September 11th. People are really into anniversaries. We kind of avoid tv then. I didn't expect one today. But after dinner we realized what Aunt Elaine was watching - some show all about it. With people who were there and actors pretending to be them in burning highrise buildings. With a firefighter walking down a smoky hallway. I don't want to see people in business suits covering their mouths. I don't want to see clouds of smoke rolling down the streets covering people.
I felt chills go up and down my body. Danielle asked Aunt Elaine to put on something else. She wouldn't. She's such a bitch. We can hear the tv from our room, even with the door closed. So we left. Alex had some money with her and we got an ice cream to share. Danielle went up at 10pm to see if it was over, but it wasn't.
We went into a corner store and read magazines until they kicked us out. We went to a pizza place and hung out for a while. There was a boy there I kind of recognized with his friends and we talked with them. Then we got kicked out for being too loud even though we weren't really that loud.
I waited until ten minutes until 11 and then told Danielle we should go home - by the time we got there and were ready for bed it had to be over. I was right.
There should be warnings or something if they're going to do 9/11 stuff ahead of time. We could have gone into the city for the night or something.
3 comments:
I'm sorry. That does suck monkey balls. My personal nemisis' are breast cancer "run for the cure!" crap and mother's day cards. They're everywhere...Not the same I know...
That just sucks all around. You all have been through enough without that woman continuing the trauma...she needs some help seriously. How can she just be alright with you all out at 11 at night, honestly how!?
I hope school starts ok for each of you, I hope the year flies by and you find a college far away and you can take your sisters and live. I hope a lot for you three and I'm sorry no one understands truly what you're going through, but we're here to listen and read.
Hugs to you and the girls.
-lil'sis
I also don't understand why someone would want to watch that over and over. There are too many reminders without even looking for them. Even a bright blue late summer sky makes me think of that day.
I definitely don't want to defend your aunt, but she's probably still figuring out how to deal with it all. It changed her life too and she obviously wasn't ready for it and still isn't. She may never be.
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