Who the hell has a party at a shitty diner? People are so fucking weird. Josh had said he'd meet me at the end of work but they wound up asking me to stay late to help with the party. I took dessert orders and helped prepare them to be served and poured coffee.
Had to call Josh and tell him not to come. He showed up later anyway. He's good like that. That's why I'm writing this from his room. Okay, that's not true. I mean it is - this is his bedroom, but we'd made this plan yesterday.
Supposedly we're broken up. Hooking up with other people is totally legal. Except neither of us are dating anyone else. I didn't tell Josh about Tristan and didn't ask what (who?) he did over the summer. I don't know what we're doing. I don't know what's supposed to happen when we graduate.
My goal is to be all "live in the moment" and just have fun now. That's really hard when everything about this year is about planning for next year.
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I remember Senior year, it went in a flash, so much to do, planning, worrying p'work, etc. Let yourself have a little fun too, the craziness of the now will really help you prepare for the neverending craziness that is college :)
I had a boyfriend the summer after my senior year. It was such a fun, sweet relationship. We broke up before I left for college. I didn't want to have to carry a relationship with me into a new place. It just seemed like it would be too heavy and would end badly.
That said, you and Josh have been together a lot longer than a summer. It sounds like things are good, but confusing all at once.
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