Payback is a bitch

I'm not going to have Alex making my bed for $2 a morning so she can turn around and give that $2 back to me. That's just me giving myself money, which is retarded. There's no good reason for me to stress out and scrape together money to give Alex. She needs to be the one stressing out and scraping together money.

Unfortunately I have to buy Alex all her dance stuff, because she needs it for school. She can't tell me exactly how she spent my money, except to say she ate out a lot and bought a lot of candy. It's not like she saved receipts in preparation for needing to give them to me. Danielle gave me some nail polishes she found that are new, as well as some cheap jewelry that was hidden. So basically, Alex bought bullshit stuff.

I told her that she has to pay me back double what she took. And I made her apologize to Josh's parents for taking her in which was totally humiliating. I wanted to make her return all the crap she bought, but she doesn't have receipts or packaging so they won't even give store credit. Obviously the nail polish is now mine.

If Alex has any cavities from all the candy she scarfed down, I am going to make her pay the dentist herself and not get any pain killers. Hell, I may ask to rip out her teeth myself. Because of the jewish holiday, there's no public school and I don't have school tomorrow or Friday. I'm working, but gave Alex a list of stuff to do. It mostly includes scrubbing the floors and dusting and cleaning everything.

Josh came into the bathroom while I was taking a shower and sat on the vanity to talk to me. He mentioned that he's stayed out of this whole thing because he knew it would just make things worse. It sounded like Josh was going to say "but..." so I quickly told him that was the right move. My plan didn't really work though, since Josh forged ahead and asked me when I was going to get over it, because it's been like a week now, I'm angry all the time, and it makes him kind of not want to talk to me.

It would be nice to be over it. Maybe I should have taken myself over to Josh's parents' house instead of Alex going there. Maybe I'm stupid or naive or whatever, but I don't think Alex will do it again. She seems confused as to why exactly she took the money. That's the impression Danielle has also, based on their late night talks. That Alex is incapable of explaining what she was thinking when she did it. She knows that I have the fewest clothes of the three of us and she has the most. She knows, because she's helped me pay bills at least once a month, that money is planned out very carefully, and that even the extra is accounted for to be used in the future. In short, Alex knows better. I don't understand. I bet my mother would.