Friday, January 27, 2012

Grownupping is exhausting

Sometimes I forget to put on deodorant (luckily not too often, but still). Sometimes I eat standing over the sink because the idea of having to wash a dish exhausts me. Sometimes I just cut corners because being a grownup is too much. Living AND going to school AND going to work AND going to Other work AND my sisters AND Josh is just ... a lot.

Sometimes when one of my sisters comes to talk to me about a problem or a big decision I just want to tell them to deal with it themselves. Can't you just figure it out and if whatever you decided was a mistake then deal with that too? That's what I've done. Granted, my life is not that impressive, but still, it's not anything to be ashamed of either.

Tonight I did something really stupid. I was studying while I was making dinner and cut my finger because I wasn't paying attention to the right thing. Blood, like alcohol, cooks out right? Well, we can all use a little more protein. My mom used to say that haste makes waste and I am forever reminding myself to slow down. The truth is the only time I actually do it is getting in and out of the shower.

Any time the tiniest difficult thing happens, Josh always says he needs a vacation. Well, I think I need a vacation now too.


Lil'Sis said...

You deserve a vacation, hope the cut heals quickly too.

Anonymous said...

I really admire you so much. Grownupping Is exhausting and you are doing an incredible job. Really. You do need a vacation : ) I am always hoping that as you and Josh grow together, you'll allow him and his family to take care of you a little more. You have done so much taking care of yourself, your sisters and Josh. Your mom and brother would be so proud and amazed at what you have done.

I am proud and amazed at you. And now, I'm specifically impressed with how you want to provide opportunities for Dani that you weren't able to have. She is really lucky to have you looking out for her now and for so many of those hard years.

You are Great.

Nina said...

Hope you heal soon! :(

You've got a lot on your plate and I do hope you get a break sometimes.

Just Me said...

Yes, it IS exhausting (especially when you are the type that always wants thing just right). I sometimes eat over the sink too. :)