Bine did this interview thing, and I signed up for it at her blog. So now I'm doing the interview.
#1. You wrote that Craig recommended you start a blog to have an outlet for your thoughts and feelings. Can you describe if and how this has helped you?
I don’t feel like it helps. But maybe it does because I haven't gotten in any fights or suspended since I started it. And it’s one more thing to do that keeps me out of trouble, I’ve gotten better at paragraphs because of blogging (which I used to get in a lot of trouble for in school), and I’ve never heard of anyone ever saying, “I wish I hadn’t kept a diary” but I have heard people say they wish they had.
#2a. Your Aunt Elaine sadly doesn’t feel responsible for mothering the three of you. Irrespective that you love your two little sisters very much, how do you feel about having to fill the mothering role ever so often?
I can’t answer this. I don’t feel anything, this is just how it is.
Second attempt at No. 2 because (as you can see above) I couldn’t answer the first No. 2.
#2b. Your home with Aunt Elaine is not always what you expect of a home. What would you like to change (even if it meant changing Aunt Elaine, like making her quit smoking or something like that)?
I am all for quitting smoking. But really, I would be happy to just somehow have our own apartment. In Brooklyn. A one-bedroom apartment. With beds for each of us. Screw all the “a minor can’t be left home alone overnight” bullshit laws. I think a lot of those laws are for dumb people. I hate age-related laws. If I’m 17 and 364 days old, am I REALLY less smart than someone who is 18 years and 1 day old? I know what to do if there’s a gas leak, I know not to open the door to strangers, I know what to do if there’s a fire. Why do we really need adults? Aunt Elaine makes our health worse by being around. She was useful when I was littler and couldn’t always reach things or open the spaghetti sauce jar, but now? No.
I would like to be able to spread out more, and put up our pictures of our mom and grandma and my brother. We have everything in bags and boxes and sometimes we close the door, take out one and look at it for an hour and then put it all back. It would be nice if everything was out, like all the time, all over the house. I would like if we weren't made to feel bad about stuff so often. Like using up shampoo or eating the last piece of fruit or whatever. I would like an air purifier from Aunt Elaine since she won't stop smoking.
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hey sam, i was away for a few days and only found your interview when i returned.
you have a point in saying you’ve never heard of anyone ever saying “i wish i hadn’t kept a diary”. i kept a diary age 14 through 16 and it probably did me good. i never reread my diaries while i was writing, but i kept them long after i had stopped and reread them a couple of years later. i was amazed how much i had forgotten or muddled in my memories.
your answer to #2 breaks my heart (right, i literally asked for that). i wish you could all have your own apartment together. i wish even more you could stay with someone who wouldn’t make you feel bad about using up stuff and taking up space. i’m pretty sure you know how to handle a lot of critical situations, it’s stupid to say you’ve got to be 18 for that. but i still feel you and your sisters need a little more being mothered by someone who cares, and i don’t see in your posts that you’re getting that from aunt elaine. it’s so sad.
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