So I put on my big girl panties after I woke up for the second time this morning and came very close to crying as I asked Arnie if I could take off Friday morning to keep an appointment. "Why don't you come in and close the door?" My heart dropped and I was sure I was going to get fired. Now what would I do with all my fancy work clothes? Good bye air-conditioned office. Good bye twirly reception chair on wheels.
Arnie asked if everything was okay. I was like "whaaaaat?" He said, "Normally when an employee comes to me on the verge of tears asking for time off, something terrible is going on in their lives. It's none of my business why you need time off, but I hope you're not going to try to get a different job at one of those dreadful diners."
I'd forgotten he thinks I quit working there to work for him. So I told Arnie about the apartment-hunting and how I didn't really want to bother since it wouldn't matter but Josh thinks it's really important. He told me to look in the Village, said I absolutely have Friday morning off and that even if I think I don't care, looking will be good and I'll find things to care about once I'm there.
After a few more minutes of instruction where I got told to check water pressure and think about how I'd feel walking up to the apartments at night in the dark, I got out of Arnie's office. Then I sat down in my twirly chair with wheels, twirled around to look out the window, and cried with relief that I'm not getting fired.
6 comments:
So glad it went well, and sorry it was so hard.
Arnie sounds like a really nice guy. Good advice, too.
I'm glad you have a boss like Arnie! It sounds like he handled it really well. And you did a great job facing your fear and asking anyway.
Glad you were able to talk with Josh.
I'm so GLAD you walked in there adn were brave. Good for you! And see? You didn't get fired :-)
Oh Sam, I want to pat your head softly and keep you company as you cry and assure you that with all the intense and quickly changing circumstances and pressures and emotions you've been experiencing, your crying is completely normal.
Josh is right about your having to go with his father, but it's kind of funny that you -- you, of all people! -- have to go apartment hunting to avoid seeming spoiled.
You are so brave to have asked Arnie. You said everything right. I hope it is okay to express how proud we all are of you.
I hope the hunt isn't too uncomfortable. There will be assessments you will be able to make that Josh's father will not. You will bring a keen eye to the search, from a different perspective and with different experience.
Thank you so much for telling us. We'd been so anxious to know.
And you told the story so well! I feel like I was right there with you.
May everything from here on be twirly!
yay for you! I'm glad it went well...good luck on the hunt, can't wait to hear all about it:)
Checking the water pressure and other things like that, like asking good questions, could make you feel more like you are doing some of the necessary work, so you aren't feeling uncomfortable about only being there to give opinions and express preferences that you feel don't matter.
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