Saturday after dinner I got a headache. Instead of taking tylenol or something I just went to lay down for a while. An hour later I got up, realized the headache was still there and so I took medicine. Washing my face I got all sweaty and couldn't get back to bed fast enough. I was going to pass out. All night I was half-awake and throwing up and sweating. I felt disgusting and in the back of my head knew Josh was sort of hovering around and was so outrageously embarrassed by it.
I spent the whole night going back and forth between the bathroom and the bed. The weird thing is my mind was totally racing and I felt like if I could just slow it down, my head wouldn't feel so tight and my headache would go away. I hurt my knees falling to the floor to throw up. At some point Josh was rubbing a wet washcloth on my back and arms and face, but I don't remember taking off my shirt. When I woke up, it was on and I don't remember putting it on either. This slightly bothers me. But I am so embarrassed Josh saw me this way that I don't want to ask and have to talk about it.
In the morning my headache was gone and I could taste acid. Sitting up the room tilted and then spun and I went back to sleep. When I next woke up Danielle was sitting next to me. She asked if I was going to work tomorrow. I said of course, but am worried that I won't be able to make it through the day without puking again.
I didn't go to family fire dinner tonight. Danielle left me cheerios. I wanted scrambled eggs but didn't want to reject her niceness plus wanted to ask her to change the sheets so Josh wouldn't have to and didn't want to be asking for too much.
I hope there's no puking at work.
3 comments:
I hope by the time you read this you're feeling much, MUCH better. Just one note about Josh seeing you like that -- I know these things don't always follow rational lines, but try not to be embarrassed about it. You live together, you sleep together, and you care about one another deeply. It's beautiful that he was there taking care of you, and it shows how much you mean to him. My guess is that you'd want to do the same for him if he was sick and you'd be upset if he pushed you away, no? Also, the only way to know if you love someone through and through is if you see each other at their worst and still feel the same way. Experiences like this strengthen your relationship.
I hope you are feeling better. Being sick like that is awful.
Hope you are feeling a lot less yucky and that work went okay!
Not much to add to Alisha's fabulous insights about Josh, just that it's great that he knew what to do to help.
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