Sunday, April 17, 2011

Change is not my friend

Most of the time I feel like the world is spinning too fast and I am barely running fast enough to keep up, to keep from falling. Like a treadmill that's going so fast you have to sprint. If anything goes wrong, it feels like the world spins faster and I am falling. Change causes faster spinning, even good change.

This morning even though Laurie was in midst of getting ready for her 50-person Passover extravaganza tomorrow, she invited us over for brunch. We went and Tom gave me a "planning for the future" talk. He explained that I need to start preparing now for getting a job after graduating. In two years. Does everyone else at school already know this? Tom said I need to consider getting a summer job more directly in the field I want to be in after graduation. That lots of people get job offers from places they work over the summers. It feels rude to Arnie to leave, but Tom swore everyone understands, and unless I want to go into real estate, or just become a bookkeeper rather than a CPA, it's pretty much expected.

The world just started spinning faster again.


Yankee, Transferred said...

Time DOES go too quickly. It's completely understandable why you feel like you're spinning. I'm glad you have adults for advice, but I also know that sometimes the "practical" talks can set a person reeling.

Deep breaths. You'll do great.

Zephyr said...

Tom is right, that summer jobs are a great lead-in to a full time job after college... with a competitive job market, having work experience in your field directly out of college is a huge benefit.

But two years IS a lot of time yet. So don't let it worry you.

I don't like change either, normally, but I am learning that some change IS positive. So I try to break it down into a series of small changes instead of one big one. And instead of focusing on the scary aspect of change, focus on the positives that will come out of it.

Anonymous said...

You are lucky to have someone like Tom who is knowledgeable enough to guide you. I know I would be a lot better off financially if I had had someone like that in my life at your age. Of course, I might not have taken their advice, because it might have meant the dreaded and to-be-avoided-at-all-costs "change". As it turns out, staying in my comfort zone and avoiding change has not always provided the best results. I think once you get your degree and a good job, and are more financially stable, then the spinning will slow down considerably.