Thursday, August 29, 2013

Waking the beast

My sister and I are not really talking. We talk, like about bullshit things, but haven't talked about how she was so angry the whole first half of the year or about anything deeper than food or movies or something.

On one hand it's kind of nice to get along after so much time hating each other. But I feel like there's this huge elephant between us. I can't just let this go and move on from it. I really DO need apologies and explanations and promises of future different behavior.

Today Josh and I went to Serendipity and when Alex found out, she asked why I didn't bring anything back for her. "Why would I?" Her jaw dropped and she was totally shocked. As if she thought we were over it. Newsflash: I'm not.

Alex is going to need to come to me on this. I tried before the summer. Done now. I am uncomfortable with the way things are. Tentative is not my thing.

3 comments:

Maqueba said...

Sam you're never gonna be truly happy if you don't let this go. It's been a whole summer. You guys had time apart to cool down and think. Be an adult and stop holding this grudge or else you'll always be unhappy. This is your sister and always will be. It's useless holding on to small shit.

Monica said...

I'm not saying hold on to the grudge but you definitely need to hold her accountable for her actions. Tell her you need to talk about what happened and then during that conversation make sure she understands how it made you feel then and how her just hoping it would magically unhappen makes you feel now. Clear the air or you're going to make yourself crazy.

Anonymous said...

"On one hand it's kind of nice to get along after so much time hating each other. But I feel like there's this huge elephant between us. I can't just let this go and move on from it. I really DO need apologies and explanations and promises of future different behavior."

You could tell her this.

"Alex is going to need to come to me on this. I tried before the summer. Done now. I am uncomfortable with the way things are. Tentative is not my thing."

If you are uncomfortable with the way things currently are and Alex doesn't come to you, you will have to choose between being done and being comfortable.

Now that you all are returning to living together, and since you want things to be different, shouldn't you firmly tell Alex what will be expected of her?