I hate Mother's Day season. I don't mind Father's Day season even though I don't have a father either. But I never had one. There's no specific person to miss.
But I miss my mom a lot. Today's only Tuesday and I've already gotten asked three times what I'm getting her for Mother's Day. Wait that's not true - I got asked twice. Once I got asked if I do anything on Mother's Day. I want to just ignore it. Completely.
Josh got his mom's card today. He asked if I want to go with him to celebrate at his parents' house. I just looked at him. He tried again. Is there anything specific I want to do. Yes. I want to specifically ignore that the day is happening. Josh does not understand.
J: But you have no problem with Father's Day?
S: Right
J: But you don't want to sign the card I got for my mom?
S: No thanks.
J: Even though it'd just mean you appreciate the mom-like things she does for us?
S: Right
J: Because you feel like it'd be ... cheating on your mom?
S: Kind of. Partially.
J: Is this one of those things I should just accept even though I don't really understand?
S: Yes.
J: And I should just do something supportive now?
S: Pudding.
J: I can do that. Come help me.
So I sat on the kitchen counter while Josh made chocolate pudding and told me stories about when he was little and I didn't cry and the rage didn't come.
4 comments:
Wow, I really hate mother's day, too. It's the holiday that makes me miss John the most, even though I know it's a made-up Hallmark fake holiday.
I'm so sorry that your mom died. But I'm so happy Josh is there to make you pudding and keep the rage at bay.
Be well.
He's wiser already than my ex will ever be. :)
It's not so bad now, but it used to be absolutely horrid. Time.
OMG, Josh is truly special. I know you know this already. Just keep him close...
My Dad committed suicide the weekend before Father's Day six years ago. I miss him fiercely. My friends tend to tiptoe around me on Father's Day, and those that don't know about my Dad ask me what we are doing for Father's Day.
In my own way, I know about rage.
I'm glad yours didn't come.
Blessings for pudding and Josh.
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