This is what Alex told me. When I asked why, she said it's the thought of heading into apple season. "But you love apples!" Alex agreed. It's just the thought of them for so many months. So I guess maybe we'll buy apples only when everything else good is completely over. Or we'll ignore her because apples are fucking awesome and if this is what depresses her then I don't have it in me to feel sorry for her. I want to make apple butter. Which reminds me, I also want to make honey butter. While I'm making butters, I also want to make that fancy butter where you can taste the salt in it that they have in some fancy restaurants. Clearly there's going to be a lot of bread-making going on in the future.