Now is the time to relax. I can't do it. All I keep thinking about is how much money it's going to cost to take the CPA exam, how much it will go up in price by the time I'm ready to take it, and whether or not my new company will pay me for the days I miss taking it. At first I thought it was the time difference keeping me up at night. When I listened to my thoughts though, it was clear all I am doing is making budget after budget when I should be sleeping, while listening to Josh breathe deeply as he sleeps.
I want to poke him until he wakes up. What is that like, to never, ever worry? When I've talked to him about the things I worry about, he looks at me like once again I'm talking about that exotic animal I'm obsessed with.
Maybe I should fly home and send back another girl for Josh. One who has no worries and can just skip around Europe with him.