Sunday, June 9, 2013

Maybe I'm mentally decrepit

Now is the time to relax. I can't do it. All I keep thinking about is how much money it's going to cost to take the CPA exam, how much it will go up in price by the time I'm ready to take it, and whether or not my new company will pay me for the days I miss taking it. At first I thought it was the time difference keeping me up at night. When I listened to my thoughts though, it was clear all I am doing is making budget after budget when I should be sleeping, while listening to Josh breathe deeply as he sleeps.

I want to poke him until he wakes up. What is that like, to never, ever worry? When I've talked to him about the things I worry about, he looks at me like once again I'm talking about that exotic animal I'm obsessed with.

Maybe I should fly home and send back another girl for Josh. One who has no worries and can just skip around Europe with him.

6 comments:

Louise said...

Have a wonderful wonderful time. Really hope that Europe weaves its magic and allows you to just be in the moment and slip into that state of being you get on long holidays - you so deserve it!

Anonymous said...

My company paid for my CPA exam as well as travel costs to get to test site (Back before you could take exam on demand). Perhaps your company would do the same. Also my company did not require me to take vacation time to tack the exam.

RC said...

It's hard but try your best to not worry about the future or money. You will likely never get this long of a stretch off again and certainly not two months in Europe. So ENJOY! The worries and test taking will be there when you get back. Promise. lol

Anonymous said...

Read up on meditation and mindfulness. Believe me, the amount you're thinking about that you could possibly save is nothing compared to hospital bills you could possible incur when stress gets the better of you.

Karen said...

This is why people need vacations that are longer than 7 days. It takes that long to really stop thinking about the daily crap you left behind. I hope by the time you get to day 7 you are feeling better about being able to relax.

The other side of the vacation duration question is how long will it take for you to decide you really are tired of vacation? For me I get there in about 2.5 to 3 weeks, although the sample size is really small on how many times I've tried vacationing past 7 days.

Anonymous said...

My company used to pay for the cost of the exam and the time to take the exam. Hopefully yours will too.